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Problems:

1. Always low on cash
2. Too much time spent alone instead of with people
3. Sister stole the car
4. Drug problem
5. Dumbed-down vocabulary, no memory, and lack of grounded thoughts
6. Never exercise anymore due to the effects of #4
7. Too insecure to drop out of school
8. Friends have boyfriends/girlfriends
9. Things we do aren't fun anymore
10. Lose cellphone way too often
11. Everyone else is growing up
12. Gaining a shitload of weight due to #6
13. Lack of inspiration
14. Stopped scriptwriting, sewing, painting, playing music
15. Dog might die soon
16. Sucking at everything I usually love; making it feel like a chore

I have no inspiration in living my life the way I used to. I really need change but I don't know what exactly.. Fuck, I can't even think straight. I can't even speak a sentence without studdering. I have been so frustrated with myself for the passed few days and now I am just plain exhausted. I miss being confident and carefree. Now I'm an overanalyzing, self-conscious, creep who is hard to please and attract.