Turned a groupie to an angel when she 8, 7, 6, 5

I already know. They can all blame it on my drug use, my family, my childhood, my heroes, my past but they'll never realize that it's all on me and nothing else. I don't need any doctors telling me how unstable I am. I get it every day from my mom, from the fuckers' stares at stupid church, from myself somedays even. Just because I am the way I am, doesn't mean I can't live the life that I, myself sees as normal.. I just don't want to give in and sell myself out in order to live a life without any honesty amongst it.. I hate it.