Turned a groupie to an angel when she 8, 7, 6, 5

I was never happy in the first place because I had been hurt previously by another boy. At least I can admit it without feeling bashful. I'm just gonna go with the flow of things like I was before this all ever happened. No searching, no nothing, just being. It's the best thing to do for now. That way I can focus on every day instead of wandering around, wishing for another stupid person who'll unwillingly be given the ability to hurt me so harshly to come around.