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My melancholy personality has been eating me up since June. I've been that kind of person all of my life, but at this point now it's hurting me like hell. Shit, dude, and I am honestly the most impatient and blind person in the world. I can't believe it's already been 5 months.. Immaturity runs so quickly and easily throughout my body. I just haven't been giving a fuck about anything since June. Fuck me; I'm such a douchebag even to myself. I don't even know how to effectively discipline myself. Bleh. Fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it. I'm leaving now. Bye.