When I'm clean of everything else (drugs, bud, alcohol, nicotine, caffiene, and you) I just become addicted to a band. I've been through this before with The Beatles in 2005. I don't wanna pull another Syd Barrett.
Man, I don't wanna be a dependent person anymore. Fuck, I know I need discipline but whenever I get it, I rebel and become an asshole all over again. Then I start fucking around, eventually in turn I screw up, then I get even more careless, and then I end up not getting anywhere in my life. I can make up all these philosophies, stupid poems, and stupid mantras in between all that fun but what's it all worth in the end..? What the worth in questioning that, then again? I don't know how to care for the things I'm "supposed to" be caring for. What I think is alright, is outrageously out of the question for others. UGH. It's just that that particular form of education is bullshit to me, always has been and the outcome is just another huge pile of shit 'cause its not even a real part of me. I don't like it, I don't want it, I already know I need it in order to make a living, but I still don't care and I don't know how to care.
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