I think I'm only obsessed with the thought of things. When they actually happen, its all enjoyable and all, but I tend to grow tired and bored and I go on searching/picturing for a new "fix", you know? I really am hard to please. Sucks.
Instead of rewriting what's been on my mind, here's an old AIM conversation for old times sake:
cblackouts: lol i just think we get sad more often and we have deeper feelings..we think more i think ahahaha
cblackouts: we aren't shallow i think more than just "what am i going to wear" you know..we are deep and we can actually express it
cblackouts: where as other people just don't know how so they forget it and move on to being happy and oblivious
cblackouts: wow that makes me sound like im bitching on most of humanity ahahaha
elpollococo: it just hurts some days where i just feel sad about the stupid world and how its all about money and i know thats just not what life should be about
cblackouts: yeah me too
elpollococo: thats why i slack off in school cause in reality i'm just going so i could make money
elpollococo: but really i dont care about money
elpollococo: but then again i do need a house someday
cblackouts: yeah same here..
cblackouts: i really don't like money but its what the world works off of..and if it wasn't money itd be something else
elpollococo: i just hate everything so much and i wish i didnt so i could just willingly get out of bed
elpollococo: it all just keeps me depressed cause i was raised to believe that knowledge and gaining knowledge was the meaning of life
elpollococo: and now that i'm older it obviously isnt. its all about money and getting materials and all that shit
cblackouts: oh i always knew money wasn't everything when i was younger bu i knew that it was important
cblackouts: especially cause i would hear my parents talk about the lottery and bills
elpollococo: yeah me too
cblackouts: but i knew money was bad
elpollococo: but then i would always look at my parents and see how much theyd fight over it in front of my sisters and i all the time
cblackouts: and my parents always said get a good job...
elpollococo: and i guess it made me look at it as such a stupid thing
cblackouts: money money money!!! i hate it
elpollococo: i do too
elpollococo: i really, honestly hate it
cblackouts: it really is
elpollococo: ugh and i hate going to school just so i could get it. i feel like such a hypocrite for doing it especially cause i'm working towards the fucking business field ugh
elpollococo: man has spread this worldwide meaning to life and its just not a reasonable definition
elpollococo: i just want to shit on it and be happy
cblackouts: BHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAa
And that is why Ghost World is my favorite movie of all time.
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