Turned a groupie to an angel when she 8, 7, 6, 5

So many opportunities and I never tried one. Now I'm here about to settle for the worst. Shit, before I know it, June will roll around I'll be 20. I haven't done anything in my life. Yeah, I graduated high school at 16, but big fucking deal, I'm still in a lameass community college, changing my major constantly and almost dropping out for the billionth time 'cause I think everything sucks. I always feel like time is running out. I always feel like I'm getting too old to accomplish the things I want to be. It's my weird 'thing', I guess; always wanting to be the first of something. Time has such an effect on my mindset. It's fucked me just as hard as fear has. Every day I ask myself, "Should I be logical and do this? Or should I just fuck everyone else's opinions and go with my own thing?" The answer should come easy but it's so, so hard.