Turned a groupie to an angel when she 8, 7, 6, 5

I honestly just wanna give up and become a housewife sometimes. Problem with that though, is I'd get even fatter, I'd have a kid that I'd have to force myself to love, and have to deal with a big baby/husband! I HATE MONEY. It's standard in the American society has honestly ruined my dreams and my perspectives and that shit meant the world to me once in my life. Now I'm just a regular, moody bitch who has no passion whatsoever for anything anymore. Dude I used to be flowing with muthafucking passion. I'd enunciate, exaggerate, and just go over the top with everything I used to love. I don't love a thing anymore. I'm dead and gone! Been since June of last year! Someone just shoot my body! Now! With heroin.. Not. I just ahhhhh I'm going crazy!